This is my first attempt at digital art. Please let me know what you think! 😀 I couldn’t find a mouse so I had to make do with the touch pad of my laptop which is why the drawing is a bit trash.
Your feedback is much appreciated! Thank you 🙂
– The Obsessive Writer
Love is a tricky thing. It’s either all or nothing. What do you call it when you feel something in between? It’s usually paired with heartache. The loss of a loved one can be devastating. To think, you can never see them again, or hear their voice. What about losing someone even though they’re very much alive? Physically they’re the same as they were yesterday. But in your heart, you know things have changed. That kind of loss, breaks you apart and leaves a taint in every memory.
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December 10th, 2015 – Is my Boyfriend crazy?
2055 – Responses
jeanjeanette : I work in a hardware store and I’ve never seen this much nuts. Run while you can!
damnitsdanielle : you spelled ex-boyfriend wrong.
reply to damnitsdanielle by lilly_27black : Amen.
darksoulsmania : Dump.
kallisti_gold : If you have to ask, the answer is yes.
darkflamingo : You need therapy. Please get away from him.
juliejuke : Oh my god, Mel?
Alissa_kelly : Everyone at school needs to know how much of a jerk he is.
December 25th, 2015 – What’s your best experience with snow?
I love the snow. When I was little, my mom and I would come out and make snow angels. Our dog Scotch thought we were playing and he started rolling in the snow too! Except his angel didn’t look very angelic. And he sort of always messed up ours too by running all over it. I don’t know why I’m saying this. I guess all memories in life are a little messed up. And so are people. That’s what makes them real. Anyway, I wish you all a very merry Christmas!
30 – Responses
clevermuggle : I was borrowing my brother’s car to get the alcohols because I was the only sober one at the party. Pretty much the entire car was covered in frost and snow. I brushed it off the handle and got into the car. I went to turn on the interior lights so I can see where to put the keys. I accidentally hit the button for the sun_roof. Snow pours all over me. So in conclusion, fudge snow. There are no good experiences.
gamer8055 : You’re still with him, aren’t you?
December 27th, 2015 – How do I break up with my boyfriend?
I can’t take it anymore. I don’t even know how to give people space, let alone be able to use the space I’m given. It’s all too unlike me.
I still want him. Of course I do. I met him. I practically lived in his arms crying or just moping around for the past few days. It felt like I’d just be able to get over it and be with him. And he’s been amazing to me. Maybe even better than before. It’s silly that he’s the person I go to when I have a problem, even when HE is the problem. At the end of every day, when I’m alone and I cry myself to sleep, I know. Deep inside. I know it’s over.
My heart feels heavy every time I think about how much it will hurt him if I left. Whatever you might think, he loves me. We love each other to bits. But it’s gotten toxic lately. One of us needs to wake up and smell the shit. And it’s apparently me. I’m going to have to man up and do it.
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December 30th, 2015 – Que Sera Sera.
All things are for the good. Or that’s what they say. I ended things with him today. But I have this strange feeling that we’ll always stay connected in a way no matter what. I never thought I’d be writing about my first love in the past tense. It’s the most predictable thing, yet no one sees it coming. I am was an optimist. What’s your excuse?
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February 3rd, 2016 – I’m Moving in to my Dorm. Got any advice?
School’s in. And it’s in Europe!! 😀 I know. I’m psyched. I’ve always wanted to travel. This is my first step in trotting all over the globe. I’m going to be alone. And I’m going to be doing a lot of exploring! Please leave some suggestions in the comments if you have any. I’m starting a fresh chapter this year. Happy new year to you all! I know I’m really really late. Tardiness is in fact my middle name. (Actually it’s Rae, if you care) But, better late than never!
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February 14th, 2016 – Happy Valentine’s Day to you and Happy Moving Day to me!!!
I’m here and it’s all happening. It is like having an pair of wings glued to my hands. I know I’m overreacting but this is my first real taste of freedom. Let’s go and explore the hell out of this place, shall we? London here I come.
67 – Responses
February 21st, 2016 – I never thought I’d say this, but English Lit sucks.
I was so excited to be finally studying something I thought I would enjoy. But then, life has a habit of throwing curveballs at me in the worst of times. My professor is a shit bag. Opinions are called opinions for a reason! It was my opinion. That’s what she asked for. And before the words even left my mouth, she was all, “WROOOONG!!!!”. Yeah whatever. And worst of all, she (I mean THEY) is this self proclaimed feminist who doesn’t let us use gender specific indicators. Which is Dumb.
30 – Responses
atomicpete : I’m pretty sure English Lit would suck no matter who taught it. Just saying..
jake6711 : Nerd alert! These girls gotta quit on this whining.
reply to jake6711 by agirlwhodreams : Piss off! Jerkwad.
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March 5th, 2016 – A secret admirer – WHAT?
Okay I’m making it out to be way more flattering than it actually is. So, I’m on my way home. I was almost in the parking when I realise that I forgot my reading material for English Lit. I hustled back to my locker because I can’t have my ass of a professor handing my ass to me again in class. I got the book and I was about to leave, and that’s when I saw it. There was a note pinned to a picture of me on my locker. It said,
You caught my eye, then you stole my heart. How predictable!
98 – Responses
To be continued…
© Abirami
New beginnings are simply the best. Everything’s all nice and shiny. I love the excitement! As good as a clean slate sounds, what is it but the calm before the storm.
Logged on as – agirlwhodreams
March 10th, 2016 – I can’t even sleep.
I should let it go, I know. But I can’t. I at least want to know who. I haven’t the faintest clue.
I was in economics the other day and this guy – let’s call him Alex! So I caught Alex grinning at me each and every time we made eye contact. I am not making this up. Believe me. I tried to shake it off thinking I was being paranoid but after a while it was clear that I wasn’t imagining it. So there I was letting the fact that Alex liked me, sink in. It didn’t sink in very far after I watched him fall off of his chair. The bloody guy was stoned.
In lunch, the cute Japanese exchange student let me have his chocolate pudding. It was the last one they had. It has to be him, right? I wouldn’t give my pudding up for ANYONE.
And Today, (this part creeped me out the most) I was supposed to have a pop quiz on all things Shakespeare. I finished my test and handed it over to my teacher and you should note that I had on a stupidly confident expression on my face while doing so. He got it from me and flipped it over. Why’d he do that? Oh yeah. He did it because the question paper was printed on the backside too. How wonderful. My expression then changed to a somewhat suicidal one. And then, he did the craziest thing. After being genuinely amused by my bewilderment, he took out his pen and filled out the answers for me. And then, he winked at me and placed my answer sheet on the stack he had collected from the rest of the class.
Oh my god. This CANNOT be happening. *gulp*
503 – Responses
Danderlion : Aww! Isn’t that cute? Your teacher sounds adorbs!!
reply to Danderlion by gamer8055 : That is extremely inappropriate, FYI.
mamaontheroad : Where do you find these guys? Seriously?
March 13th, 2016 – Blast from the Past.
Jake texted me asking how I was doing. It’s just a text, but I can’t believe it’s affecting me this much. I hate it. There’s this sickening feeling like a hole is forming in my stomach and it’s sucking all the air out. Why can’t I be one of those people who reminisce their lost loves and write poetry about them? Why did I have to be so messed up? I’ll never know.
Oh and I forgot to mention, I replied saying,
Woahsome! you?
What in God’s name is “Woahsome”? I disgust myself.
To top it off, when I was kicking myself about this, I accidentally knocked over a trash can and this girl saw me fall on my ass. Why did it have to be her? Let’s call her Evilla. Frankly, that’s what everyone should call her. She’s been on my case since the day I got here. As soon as my ass hit the floor she let out this high pitched shriek of a laugh and her dumb girl gang joined in. I deserved it.
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March 20th, 2016 – I don’t understand
I should write that on a T-shirt and wear it everywhere. Because, I really DON’T understand. Do you remember my teacher from the test? Of course you do. I had to submit my paper which was a follow up to the test in the office. As soon as I walked in to his cabin, his face lit up like it always does. He’s a good looking man. You know? That kind with sharp chiseled features that could literally cut you. Not that I care or anything. Two other staff were there talking to him. I left my paper on his desk and as I was about to leave, he decided to introduce me to his colleagues. He was like, “This is Melissa. She’s my number one fan girl this semester!” And as I stared in absolute horror, the other two men were snickering and nudging him saying, “Look at you go, heart breaker!”
Wait, WHAT? He thinks I like him? Sure. SURE. Well that explains the answers he forged on my test. A little charity for your fan, huh?
I just stormed out of there without a word. I hope he got the message that I am most definitely not his fan.
15 – Responses
KateKlossi : You sure you’re not into him?
reply to KateKlossi : YES. I’M SURE.
March 25th, 2016 – It happened again!
Anyone could have seen that yellow envelope sticking out of my locker from miles away. I rushed over to it all the way from across the corridor, not realising that I was attracting too much attention.
I pulled it out with way too much excitement. It’s a miracle I didn’t rip it to pieces.
How much longer do I have to wait? You still owe me a heart.
Somehow this secret admirer person is becoming the only person I like lately. I mean, my friends are cool. There’s Andrew and Jessica from English Lit. But, this person sort of gives me hope that there’s still some mystery left in life. I like that. As always my happiness is tremendously short-lived.
Evilla walked right through me knocking over the letter. Oh she’s blind now? Good for her. It was obvious she orchestrated the whole damn ‘accident’. She picked up the envelope as if she was helping me out and she totally peeked at it. I could tell she read it from the way her buggy eyes popped. “Someone left that, for you?”, she just squealed almost as if it was too unrealistic. Yes. Why would anyone leave anything for little boring Mel when they could be leaving it for super smart Evilla. Well screw you, Evilla! You didn’t get a note. I did. Suck on that.
30 – Responses
KateKlossi : It’s definitely your teacher. Mind games are so hot! I miss being a teenager.
Ronnie230 : Forbidden love does have that fire to it. Be careful, girl. don’t get too burned. 😉
gamer8055 : WHY DOESN’T ANYONE SEE THAT THIS IS INAPPROPRIATE?
To be continued…
© Abirami
What’s a hero without an arch nemesis? In every story you’ve read with a strong protagonist, there’s always a bad guy that keeps them on the right track. It’s funny how the human mind works. We are more motivated to do something, when someone tells us we can’t. It’s easier to focus on fighting for something with all that we’ve got, when there’s someone trying to stop us. Sometimes having an enemy isn’t a bad thing.
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March 26th, 2016 – Let the games begin.
As scary as it is, this is also the most exhilarating thing I’ve ever done. You’d understand if you were from a boring old town like me. The only place I’ve ever seen mean girls was on Netflix. My school was full of preachy little kids who were too boring to get into any trouble. This little war thing that’s going on between me and Evilla, has been AWESOME. Ever since she found that note in my locker, it’s like she’s threatened by me. So every day is like a battle for her status as the most desirable girl. It’s hilarious that she think that I would ever be desired by anybody. That note is probably nothing but a prank. But who am I to interfere and burst her bubble? Frankly I’m loving the attention. And most important of all I am loving her melt downs. For instance, the other day, I was in the swimming pool trying to relax and get myself to focus so I could go back to my room and try and study. I’ve always found swimming a few laps to be the most calming thing in the world.
She got wind of the fact that I swim. And apparently someone told her that I was going to try out for the college team. (Which I was so not) So the very next day she made this hilarious attempt to get a spot for herself on the team by flirting with Brandon, the swim team captain. See this is the thing with girls like Evilla. They’re so pretty that they think everyone would just bend over for them. What she did not know was that he was GAY. He obviously shot her down, but she thought he was straight and didn’t want her or something. She’s been moping around all week trying to figure out what Brandon likes. It was with great pleasure that I informed her, that it was boys that Brandon liked. I wish I could have photographed the look on her face.
Didn’t I tell you? This stuff is fun!
347 – Responses
teh-piper : You go girl!
optiongeek : I don’t think “fun” is the word most people use to describe bullies. This is offensive and insensitive to all the people like me who have suffered a great deal at the hands of such bullies. And it was most definitely not fun.
reply to optiongeek by gamer8055 : Dude you’re the only bully here. She’s just being positive. You need to get a life.
drewisawesome : You should have had some more fun messing with her!!
itsmehannah : It’s nice to see you’re doing so well, Mel 🙂
reply to itsmehannah : Hannah!!! 🙂 I miss you. It would be way more fun if you were here with me. You always helped me kick some serious ass 😀
reply to agirlwhodreams by itsmehannah : You mean I kicked ass, while you watched. 😀 Love you girl! – xoxo
March 30th, 2016 – I strongly believe that I am some sort of magnet that attracts insane people.
She won’t leave me alone. Every day, every night. She keeps obsessing over who this secret admirer is. Even I’m over it. Today was the worst yet. We were doing this practise test in class and the teacher said she would consider this for 20% of our final grade. I’m not that good with Analytical Writing. I was struggling already and she made it so much worse. She kept flinging things at me during the test asking me if I sent the note to myself. I tried to ignore her but at one point it got so annoying. I simply caught the pencil she tossed at me and threw it back at her. My teacher saw this and kicked me out while Evilla got off scot-free. Just great. I am definitely going to fail and she is INSANE.
likesporches : You should set her on fire.
reply to likesporches by jackal_6 : You’ve gotto chill bruh.
March 30th, 2016 – How to get away with murder.
Step 1: Lure your victim using a shiny object.
Step 2: Kill them.
Step 3: Chop them into little tiny pieces and blend them into a smoothie and flush it down the drain.
Seriously. I am so vexed right now. I have been begging my teacher all day to let me take a retest. After a lot of pleading she said she’ll give me that retest IF I submit a 10,000 word essay analysing the various figures of speech by the next day. That is a lot of words. All thanks to Evilla. I really am going to kill her. All this for some secret admirer who probably doesn’t even exist? I hate my life.
35 – Responses
gamer8055 : You must be cute when you’re angry.
reply to gamer8055 : WHAT?!
April 1st, 2016 – I think my best friend likes me!! What do I do?
I am freaking out. I have never been more terrified in my life. I just need to calm down for long enough to type all this down so that I can make some sense out of this. So I was whining to Jessica and Andrew about what was going on. And by what was going on I mean my crisis that is Evilla. In case you forgot these two are my only friends here. When we were talking, I mentioned how I thought this whole secret admirer thing was probably a prank and that no one could possibly like me. Suddenly Andrew was like, “Why wouldn’t someone like you?” He said that in the smallest voice. Almost like he was guilty. I have watched way too many romantic comedies and high school movies to not see through this. It all falls into place when I think about it. He’s always been so good to me. He always took my side when Jessica and I disagreed. Guys don’t just do that! IT HAS TO BE HIM. I have no clue what to do.
3023 – Responses
wombatzilla : You’re in some scary territory.
unhappymedium : You need to decide if you like him or not. Please don’t lead him on if the feelings aren’t mutual.
justaredditbrowser : I once dated my best friend. I wonder how he’s doing now. It’s been 15 years since we last spoke.
To be continued…
©️ Abirami
I don’t need another saviour,
I don’t need a pair of helping hands.
I don’t need another critic,
I don’t need the judgement.
I have had enough,
Of all these so called guiding lights.
That only leave me squinting.
I am done with the pushing and shoving.
All I need,
Is a heart to come home to and a soul to call mine.
All I need,
Is warmth beside me in bed.
All I need,
Is you.
©️ Abirami
Every night, we meet in a recurring dream.
Making new promises, to redeem.
Your eyes locked on mine,
Our fingers entwine;
Two hearts beat as one,
All the masks are undone.
I couldn’t walk, but with you I fly.
Amongst the stars setting fire to the sky.
© Abirami.
THE OBSESSIVE WRITER 